What I learnt from CRM is true. 4 stages of how people deal with changes.
1) shock and denial
2) anger and resistance
3) investigation and bargaining
4) acceptance and commitment
I am now in the first, second and third stage of dealing with changes. I am not dealing with a change in me. However, I just saw a great change in someone I knew for quite so long. Its just so hard for me to believe what I’ve seen.
What happened to her that she changed until she became as what she is right now? I am useless and helpless in this sense. That’s the reason why I just cant pursue my education in the religious path. Its not that Im totally letting go of my religious knowledge but I just cant hold the great responsibility of being a professional in the religious stream. I am not perfect myself and how am I suppose to help those who are weak.
I am now speechless.
I am now disappointed.
I am now sad.
I feel so helpless.
I feel so useless.
I dont act as a true friend.
I am so sorry, I just cant bring out the right words to you.
I don’t have the courage and strength to drag you out from the darkness.
But I promise.
I will continuously pray till you can see the light shining upon you.
When that day arrive,
you will realize your mistake and repent.
Even i despise what you are doing right now,
You know that deep in my heart I still care.
Because the fact doesnt change,
You are still my friend, my friend.
